Happy Birthday to Me!!!

Thank y'all who greeted me and came to join me on this spend this special day. Thank y'all who wanted to but wasn't able to come but sent me their greetings. Thank you... thank you... I just turned 19 and I'm glad I get to spend it with my friends, well, most of them. It could've been happier if they were all here. Sigh! Anyways, things are meant to happen that's why they do but still I could've done something to have prevented it or somehow lessen the effect of some very hurtful events. I've been through the same phase at some point in my life and I should know how it feels. It hurts to feel so useless especially when you didn't know your friend needed help. My hypothalamus works well to make feel happy and sad at the same time. I finally had the conversation with Amor that should've already been done with days ago. I was crying on the phone but I believe he has no idea and that's good. I know I need balance and here's what God gives me. Thank you, Lord. I'm sure things will get better. Someday... Sigh! It's been like years since I got so disappointed. I was expecting Cogie to be in Sugo but he wasn't. I read some articles saying Paolo's role should've been his. My, oh, my. Darn you, Pao! It could've been better, I believe. We'll I got this good news from iGMA.tv forums: Cogie has a new commercial, shampoo commercial. Head and Shoulders. I already saw it and I wanna have a shot from that ad. That's the closest I can get to him for now. I think I'm going 'nuts' (uh... don't take the word seriously 'cause though it sounds cute, it's not always good especially at this point in time) for Cogie; I pretend he's with me like we were shooting a scene, we were being interviewed together, having a pictorial or, having a simple chat like we were close friends. Man, what can I do to get to him? Heavens, give me a sign!!! I just wanna let everybody know I'm here if they need me. They just have to tell me when and where and they'll know I'll try my best to be there. It hurts to say how things could've been there if I was there or if I did this or if I didn't do that... but, hey, that's how it works and things are happening for a reason, reasons which we will know in God's time. I never imagined I'll be saying this. It never came to me that this day will come, that I'll be telling my readers about the faith I have and how much I trust it. But here it is, to God be the glory. God bless us all... by the way, we already got the pictures!!!