Brokenness is just so me...

Heart, don't fail me now! Courage, don't desert me! Don't turn back now that we're here...

I'm not really there yet but I'm coming! I just need time and space to breathe and get ready for take off. I wouldn't know what will happen unless I go out there and see what's behind that black door. I just need support. So, I'm calling all my allies out there, I NEED YOU NOW! I think I already said this a lot of times before. Now, I'm missing Beverly more. She's one of the very few people who believe in me, a very good cheerleader. Well, it's not just her but the rest of the BCS11 Batch '03. I'm not close to everyone and even I left the class but it feels so empty knowing that I might not see most of them ever again and the others didn't even say goodbye. I miss those... them! I think it'll be happier to share my future success with them. I just wanted some fans, friends who will be proud to have known me personally. I wanna be happy but I'm broken and you have no idea...

I have often dreamed of a far off place Where a hero's welcome would be waiting for me Where the crowds will cheer when they see my face And a voice keeps saying, "this is where I'm meant to be"...

It sure feels lonely at the top though I'm just not there yet. Just thinking of it is killing me but that's where I wanna be right now. Maybe that's what looking back does. Maybe I just have to face it. I don't wanna be so attached anymore because those who were left to survive Computer Science will already be graduating next, I have to say goodbye, and be lonely for the rest of my days remembering them and thinking what could've been if I stayed. There's gotta be more to life than feeling what I feel right now every now and then. It's typically me to be lonely over things like this but I need to fight it somehow atleast while... Man, I don't really know. All is I know is I have to some way, some how.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky...

I wanna write some more thing but I have a class later at 7am and I have to wake early so I won't be late again in class. I'll just do this tomorrow or I mean, later 'cause it's already morning.

Good Morning, Everyone!