I wish you were here...

Not on the mood for anything... I'm hungry but I won't eat... A lot to be done but I haven't started working... Sigh! I want a new phone. Man, this sucks. I used to be patient but now I can't wait. I need it badly now. My fingers are itching to touch that phone. Second hand? Doesn't matter! I just gotta have one. My savings still ain't complete. Grrr! We're going to GMA for auditions and I'm having second thoughts. I'm doubting myself again. The discman won't read the cd, this whole star thingy does not seem to work for me. Not that it really didn't or won't I'm just not sure. I'm sure I've got my friends' support but still... By the way, I already have taken my pictures for the audition and well... It just can't lie. I have grown so fat over 4 semesters and 2 summers. Sucks, bigtime! I wore the tunic top my Tita bought for me. It's actually cute but with my figure... Argh! No wonder why some people tease me. I miss my clothes. I actually have a lot in my closet but I keep wearing the same thing because it just won't fit anymore, even the jeans. My favorite jeans from Penshoppe?! Wah! It wasn't all bad, really. The full-body shot sucks but I like the close-up. I look like a drama queen in that one. I also took some wallet size photos to give away to some lucky people. Hehe! I'll scan those pic and put it on my Friendster and at my ImagePop account. Oh well! I, so suddenly, thought I wanna be a model. Not a supermodel model but those who endorse clothing brands, those who appear in commercials... Wow! Just imagine... Aw! My body's not so fit right now but who can stop me from dreaming? I think I need a liposuction and a lot of dermatological treatments. I'll be there someday. I just have to work for it. That's exactly what I'm doing right now. I just wish I could work hard for it... Things are already getting clearer. The Felise Cruz Pregnancy issue turns out to be just her way to get money from those who wants to interview her. Man, she's pathetic. I read this from an article and I trust this one to be true. The sl*t's a liar! Tsk tsk! Goodness, I was told that Cogie had an accident last Monday in Tagaytay. He slept while driving and bumped in to a trike. I hope his fine now. I wish I can check on him personally. Haaayy... NAF still does their taping and they do it Indang but I don't know in what part or how to get there. And I wish I knew what his plate number and car brand is. I'll hunt him. Haha! I love you, Redmond!