Annoyingly, ME!

Yeah. Yeah! I'm a snob. So what?

There was this girl sitting behind me during my Sociology class who seems to constantly smile, talk you off like you were close to her and ask for paper. I remember talking to her once or twice, and yeah I smiled at her but not at her but I think it was about something we talked about but, sorry girl, I don't like her. Now I know what peeve meant in that Pet Peeves question they have in Groupee, though she isn't a pet and... yeah! Ugh! I just don't like FCs (Read: FEELING CLOSE). Maybe I'm FC too so I resent the act but... Whush! I dunno what else to say, really. Then during the period, we had a quiz and my pesky classmates from different courses and college has united with their lies. They've conspired, if I must say. They told the substitute teacher that there wasn't suppose to be a quiz today. Fuck the liars! I studied and in my thoughts I want to brag about having studied and tell the teacher they were lying. I wanted to show them the notes I jotted down and the handouts, that they say they haven't got or haven't been given, as proof and put them all to shame. The other substitute teacher who gave the lecture and was suppose to give the quiz but had to excuse herself because of an appointment has been humiliated in her absence, poor lady. You could tell they didn't review and though they look like nerd, most of ladies in the front rows, the title Nerd seem to be a privilege they don't deserve. They also, somehow, displayed lack of common sense. Mayabang ako? Thank you! They ask questions about the question being asked using another word which is actually synonymous. So, ano? Quite a way to start the day, huh? But I got sunshine in a cloudy day... Whoooohooo!

Blessed day, isn't it? Before i actually got in the room at the basement (That's where the Sociology class I enrolled to was held, 3rd floor down the basement... Isolated and creepy!), Rex saw me infront PLS and asked me to hop in and gave me a lift and dropped me off at CBA. He told me they, Adea, will be playing this afternoon at SM Dasmarinas and Zealots will be too. I wanted to come and watch them play but I'm already out by 1330 but I want to be home right after class. But still, I told him I'll try. Sigh! I also saw him the other day, while I was sitting down the parking lot reading Wicked, with Jobelle and told me he's playing for us in COSGA. And I'm looking forward to that one though that may be my last... because of some personal reasons. Holiday vacations always give me a lot of things to think about and that was one of it. I will say no more of this but... Haha! Basta! And, oh! I want to correct somethings. It was CSPC (Computer Science Program Council) not COSSC (College of Science Student Council) that seem to always put me at an embarassing situation with a lot of people watching. And Micoi, being my friend and a part of COS, has always been patient of me and tries to give in to my whims when playing. Haha! CS always makes me feel unwelcome and incapable. Maybe it's just me but they make me hate the way they do things, though they do good things too, really esp. when I join in any of their activities which does not include Music. I find them bias to particular people that they like but not all of them, just some and some, too, seem to act dumb. Sorry for the terms I use to describe but that is what everything looks like to me.

Have I turned to something inhuman? Nope. I'm just being myself. The fact that I'm not a straightforward, frank, honest or even a tactless person makes it hard for me to keep thinking straight seeing things like these and feeling it. Writing is one of the very few things I do best to let out the negativities inside of me and here you are reading it. I'm still trying to be nice, you know. I still have things that I choose not to share with people out of respect and of shame and out of having been lost as words. And I think I should keep the mystery of being me to myself. You don't have to understand anything I say here 'cause you won't or atleast not fully. Stuffs I put here are not even half of what is contained in my thoughts, I just thought I should let people know a portion of myself and... Waaah! Enough of that drama. Haha! I don't know how to end today's entry so I'll just puff out in smoke and evaporate like a phantom in the mist...

PUFF! Haha!