Incessance and Indiscreetness

I am scannning through some web pages as I write this entry. I read a, if I must say, seemingly accurate biography of Vlad, the Impaler or Dracula as he is more popularly known. What should I call the slaughter he brought about to the people in his homeland during his time? It was more than barbaric. The whole thing was indescribable. But, why does he fascinate me? Well, he was depicted in Copolla version of Stoker's Dracula in a more human way than ever can history. And I fell in love with THAT Dracula. The Dracula recorded in history was this blood thirsty, merciless monster that would indiscriminately kill to give himself pleasure. All this killing is killing me. I'm fearing for my own life now. I watched Imbestigador where there was this missing boy, same age as I am, who was allegedly killed by policemen and not just killed, he was dismembered. That would not have been a deed of a sane man or men for that matter. How evil has the world turned? Living beings are a lot more dangerous and fearful than those supernatural beings we would usually be afraid of. I do not understand why the world's history cannot free itself of killing and why humans use it to gain what they wish. Anyway, back to the vampire thingies... I remember this funny Jacky Chan Adventures episode I've seen about a Kyon-shi [Not sure of the spelling though, it's just how I understood what they called it], a Chinese vampire. The way to kill it was, according to that episode, getting its left sock [and yeah, it wore socks] putting something [I forgot what it was] in it and throwing it into the river. Some way to get rid of the undead, I thought but when I read this article about vampires, Gypsy vampires to be specific, the method was true. But well, of course, vampires are just beings of myth and lore though there were facts where these fictions were based from. Haha! Would you look at that. How powerful can the human mind be?

Speaking of human mind... I remember what my brother told me about "entities" in our home. As I write this part of the post, our wind chimes are moving. The chimes are placed hanging on the ceiling, inches away from the door and it should not move unless the door hits it or someone intentionally makes it move. What about that? Must be psychological... shared delusion or something. Or the wind coming from the fans is that strong that it reaches the ceiling and hitting it making it move or the earth's gravity is doing it. The earth moves, right? And perhaps it moves with it? Err... I can account for it but I do not want to scare myself because these stuff do not usually freak me out. I'm so used to staying up late and even later than this time when I'm writing tonight's post. This should've been during the Halloween. I would have wanted it to set my mood for that season but too late now for that 'cause it's over and the mood I want to get is for school. I want to get the mood for being active and alive in school. Blah-blah! Good thing they have these Telefantasia's on tv that will give you the warrior spirit you need to fight against the evryday battle in life. I should be done for now. I still have my folded clothes to put into my cabinet and my teeth has to be brushed before I go to bed. But before I go, I'd like to share that I got this BSB mp3 for LimeWire. Haha! It's the theme for the kiddie show, Arthur and it is awesome. Haay! Makes me love BSB more and more and also reminded me how mad I should be with those "Rockers" or they who call themselves "Rakistas", they who know nothing about music except for Rock music. They think Rock alone is cool. Poor poseurs and poseuses! They keep calling BSB a "boyband" when they're actually a VOCAL GROUP. Nobody wants RAKISTAS! The world needs open-minded musician not just music lovers who discriminate other musicians and musical genres because... I don't really know why? I must confess that's the trouble I'm having with my ES band. The don't wanna try other musical style. I don't wanna be locked up in a Gothic band forever or atleast while I'm in college. I wanna explore music and my talents. Well, okay I'm lousy on stage because I don't move that much or I still can't get over that stage fright but... Man!!! There's gotta be something more I can try. I'm already thinking of leaving the band to get another or quit it forever to pursue another career 'cause I can stay stuck with that kind of monotony; it's just not me. I hate routines and I easily get tired of it. I deserve something better, something more and I won't get it unless I do something. Like my PPS dream... I'm coming back to try it again when I'm ready but for now I have to regain the drive and motivation I had before last sem. I have so much plan and need so much more to obtain it...

I just need to write it in my To-Do list lest I forget. Please remind me to do that...