Confessions...

Corny but I have to say it. My heart is breaking but I dunno who to blame. I'm afraid but I guess I have to settle for the 3k seats during the concert. I've known of the concert long before anybody did, or any one I know of but I think I'm never gonna get as close as I want to. I was suppose to getting my concert money from the money I was suppose to be given for my Christmas shopping but I got less and not even half of the amount I was expecting. I'm not used to this. The past Christmases haven't been this bad. I don't know what happened and I dare not ask 'cause I have not the guts to. I should've already known of the concert schedule when my Tita came, I could've asked her to buy that for me or atleast I could've have saved for it. Nobody understands how important this is for me, they only think I'm an avid fan. I'm not just that. I going to explode if I don't let it out. I have reasons I can't say and only Heaven knows of such speciality. I still have hopes left like the promos their having in ASAP Fanatic and MYX. I have nothing to lose but so much to win. This is what I pray for every night. Opposing forces are around, everywhere; I don't see but I feel them. I have no idea when this will happen again of if it ever will but I'll do it all again.

Help.