Kill me from within...

Oh, the crankiness of me...

I feel desperate and miserable. This is what I get for wanting something so bad. I've learnt my lesson now: never get yourself caught by surprise, now I'm crying out for something I can't have easily. I should've known earlier and I could've prepared. Maybe I would not be suffering right now. I guess I'll have to be contented with what I can get for myself. But I still believe in miracles ans divine intervention and destiny, and if something happens at the last minute... I'll be forever thankful and grateful to the Greater Power that rules us all.