All I Need...

I just love the way he prays, the way he does the sign of the cross brings me close to heaven. I've been staring at him from the corner of my eye and I can't even remember a thing our professor said though I really am getting good at multitasking (read: stealing glances and listening to the lecture at the same time). I can't help but dream that he's immitating the way I sit or maybe it's me immitating him. The school year is almost at its end and I still haven't got the chance to talk to him though I do manage to ask him to hand me or pass something when our papers are being given out. I know if we're meant to know each other, we'll eventually get to. Only a few weeks left but it's only now that I'm starting to talk to my other classmates. there's no problem with my blockmates since we'll be hanging out together for the next two years but being irregular on some of my subjects, especially that one with R.C.'s class... How in the world will I ever get to talk to him? By the way, R.C. is not Ramon Carlo, because if he ever thinks that I was talking about him... Oh, my! I can already imagine his narcissistic reaction. Yeah, he's cute but not my type not when I've known him since highschool. I just have to leave my hopes to prayers and destiny. Awww...

I like you!

My heart thumping with the drums, a childhood dream happening right infront of my eyes... I can still clearly remember everything. Cellphone lights shone like stars in the night, burning bright for BSB. Of all those stars, their eyes shone the brightest. I heard voices from heaven and they are talking to me through their songs... And CUT! End of dream sequence. Hehehe... Isn't it wonderful, having to wait for something for half of your lifetime and so suddenly having it right infront of you. I was born for it, I believe. As David Pomeranz sang in a song, "It's as if the powers of the universe, conspired to make you mine...". Imagine having spent nights crying a week or two before the concert because of fear that I may not see it since I only got Php1000 at that time. It was well-planned but some things just didn't work out adn finding yourself stressed out with thinking of how or where you'll get the money for it? If you'll have the interest of digging into my archives for post from November, when I heard of the upcoming concert, till a week before the big day, I'll tell you: I was desperate like hell! I was brooding like a kid who wants a Barbie Doll but can't actually have it. Thank God, thank God! *Throws kisses to heaven* This must be what a certain bible passage promised, something like: Ask anything in prayer and you'll get it. Well, it's definitely not the exact words but it said something like that and I forgot which apostle wrote it but still I'm blessed and grateful and it's definitely worth the sacrifices I'm making right now and it's really hard. Really hard for me being, at some point, extravagant and binge-loving.

Having mentioned the song Born for You, there is this line I love: What is the chance in heaven that you'll find your way to me. It kinda fits the way I feel about Alex (bSb), Cogie and... check the first paragraph of this post. Hehe...

It was written in the stars... Awww! That is very Romeo and Juliet, and I just love it!

I bought something for someone special. It's nothing expensive but I know he's appreciate it. We are in a lot better condition now than we ever where some years back. I got 2 for the two of us. But it'll have to wait till May 'cause only then will I see him. I'm just happier now that no one can stop me now from being close friends with someone who's been a special part of my life. DABAX!

I'm feeling better everyday. I've always been self-centered and I think it's not to bad like in my case right now that I'm trying to put my pride back together, trying to build my self-esteem and trying to improve my self image. Life is lighter now that aside from school work, I won't have to think of most things that doesn't really concern me. Look at me now, and I can tell you I can kiss my self in the mirror again, just like before. I'm just loving life and living love and living life with love. Haha! I'm losing my sense of sense once again but I suppose you can tell I'm happy. Heehee...

Wish you all a good night's sleep, thank you for wasting time reading my thoughts...

KISSES!!!