Looking back

10 years and counting... I've been loving BSB almost half my life. The tour is over, no clue when they are coming back. I can only keep track on them through Weird World but I'm not a member! Good, eh? I wish I knew someone who is a member. Awww... They're off the road now, on their own ways, doing their stuffs. Are they coming back? Dunno but if it takes another 5 to 10 years, I'll wait all over again.

Oh, yes! Valentine's is over and it can never get as lame as this year's. Ahaha! I'm so glad that no such things as Valentine Spirit ever existed liek that of Christmas. I got greetings from some friends but not from the person I actually expect it from but doesn't really matter now. I'm just pretending not having gotten over him. I still want him as my friend and we already are but even so, he has no obligation whatsoever to greet me on any occassion. However, this year is a bit different than the past years, I got something by accident. It wasn't really for me but since it wasn't fetched by the one who's suppose to get it for someone else, it was given to me. It's a small heart-shaped balloon. Oh, well! Atleast I got something.

It was Val's birthday yesterday and they went out without me! Hehehe! But I don't really mind, we still have a year. I was so tired yesterday that i went straight home, and not to mention so hungry and sleepy. Though I wished I was there. I've wanted to treat myself to KFC or Jollibee but I have no money, heck! Poor me, huhuhu! I have to save for that debt. I wish I have more money as an allowance. There's so much I wanted to have but I have no budget. Money, hey! Ahaha!

I just have to endure school for a few weeks and it'll be over or I can give up this early and let it go. I won't fail anyway. I need some strength to carry on with school work.

The guys played basketball this afternoon and again without me. I just can't fight getting sleepy and so hungry 'cause it gives me headaches. I take afternoon naps everyday, get stiff neck every now and then but sleep revives me. I work on my assignments at night and I get sleepy early though sleeping doesn't really come next.

I love Kim Sam Soon, I hope everyone gets to watch it. Now, I look at being fat at a different way now. Not yet totally but I'm getting there. I'm starting to like myself again. I start having thoughts of losing weight and wearing my other clothes again. My figure is not my only problem, I also have skin problems I have to solve. Not only on my face but else where that hinders me from feeling good about myself. Should I say it? No, I won't! Hahaha!

Seems like there's no way, they're gonna show that BSB concert on televeision or release it as home video. I have my own footage but I prefer professional and official coverage. ABS-CBN is the lousiest Media Partner a concert can ever have. I wish they gave it to GMA7 instead. Thinking the artists that came to ABS, they gave more attention to F4 even giving them TV specials, WTH?! I hate them for that! I still see that night clearly in my head when i think of it. I wish there's still next time. I want to give them something.

Come back! I want you back! Aaaaahhhhh!!!