What say you?

Alright, burning every single video I have on the computer is not a good idea. I can't think of a way to shrink it to the smallest size possible. I only bought six, and one cd is only enough for one concert and I one even got destroyed, dunno how. I'm currently burning a cd as I write but the 3gp video I converted to MPEG does not match, the video runs faster than the audio, though I managed to burn the pcitures I got off the concert from my phone and of the other fans. No real problem with the 3gp files since I kept in my webspace but the BIG files, I have to wait again. I have to finish paying my debt before I can save for something else. Heck! I need a good lot of CDs to burn them all and just imagine that another BSB fan is asking a copy of all those vids! I can't afford to buy blank CDs in bulks and I don't have my own CD writer. My video collection have reached almost 10Gb already and I have to burn them before I can download more. we didn't have a computer when I first became a fan and now I have them there to grab, I don't have money. Heck! Now, I've just destryed another CD, which leaves me with only 3. Argh! It's such a shame, I wanna tell the world I'M BROKE and I NEED MONEY again. Look at this: I get P150 everyday, P50 goes to my fare, I have to save P65 for my debt which leaves me with P35 and I need to eat but do you know how much is the cheapest food I can buy? NAMAN! And then a lot of projects for the Finals require money to get done. How can these teachers can be so inconsiderate!

Tonight is the last night of Sugo! YES! I hope it's the last lame TeleFantasia that will ever be produced and we've heard the last of it. And I hope I don't see Richard Gutierrez in Captain Barbell! Man, it's so lame I don't wonder why Mulawin the Movie didn't get any award. Wahaha! Annabelle defending his son is out of pure love and belief in his talent but the feeling is not mutual with the others who've seen it and seen Chard perform. *Grins*

I got good grades! Yay! All my major subjects! Wahaha! I did it. I don't need to be on top and it feels good that I made progress. It just pisses me off that some of my classmates this sem who does better than I do, is so lazy doing their assignment. It's so unfair but I already did something about it. I doesn't and won't really hurt them, they just needed to be taught some lessons.

I missed on assignment in Economics because of... Grrr! Yeah him! That will be the last time he'll ever do that to me. He's so lucky, I'm quite in a good mood though I'm not so happy with what happened to me because of him, that parasite! I'd love to crush him!

CS Idols went on last Wednesday. The production was a lot worse than last year. Championships were retained except for the vocal solo and I loved that one result, it was well-deserved and so is the Freestylerz's but the Acoustic... Err... I'm not bias but two other groups did better than the "Reigning Champions". I was not really convinced but I didn't mind since I have totally lost faith in the fairness of the Council that made it happen. I just wanna say what I think. And I'm glad I decided not to join the guys, I don't want to make myself feel bad.

Yay! I think I'll love the new Korean series Kim Sam Soon. I love Koreanovelas! Awwwee! I think I can relate to this one, already told my friend about it. I need something to make me feel better about being fat or stocky. I look around to see the difference in being stocky in the midsection with fat girls and pregnant woman. Imagien how bad people think of me. I get teased about being pregnant but WTF?! I wanna tell them, "Hell, I'm still a virgin!" and beat the life out of them but that will be too vulgar and barbaric. I can't pretend that I'm not affected because things like these just makes me feel worse about myself, affecting my whole self-image. How will people love me if I can't even love myself? But how can I love myself if people keep making me feel bad about it. Others say that what others think isn't important but it is to me... How can I forget being humiliated on stage last year by a fugly faggot who thinks he's some stand-up comedian in a comedy bar saying, "Buntis ba 'yon?". I wouldn't have known if my friend didn't tell me and didn't get it on tape when he covered the CS Idols last year. It's still in my head and fury runs wildly in my veins still now. I still that gay in school and I can't help but think evil thoughts in my head. If I could just be given one chance to take my revenge, he'll regret he even hosted that show. I know I was fat then and fatter now but nobody need to tell me 'cause I already know. My belly has grown big, bigger than my dad's, I can't wear most of my clothes 'cause some of them wouldn't fit anymore, but doesn't look like anything of a pregnant woman's. Dieting won't help me neither will exercise but I know a way. Science has all the greatness I need but then again, I NEED MONEY. I can a lot of Medical Procedures to get rid of my nuissant body fats ot take Medicines. I just need money or I can take offers if anyone has plans of giving it to me for free... I can already imagine!

I still have a few months before May to make some changes. I want to go visit my friends in Lucena and show them that I take care of myself though it doesn't really show since I've let myself grow sooooo big. Heck!

That's it, let me cool down a little...