blue on black saturday

I've done a lot of thinking last night. I was thinking of this something I used to love, I've always held on tightly and possessed. I still think I own it but it's out of my life. I've always wanted to let go but my hand just held on tight. I want it to just always be there, but then I realized it just can't and won't. It has its own turns to take, evolutions it has to go through and there are no other options left but let it go. I wanted some sign before I hand it over to destiny but I don't want some humongous billboard to fall from the sky, and hit me hard on the head before I start to comprehend the reasons of things. Change is constant but I didn't expect it to happen so fast, well, not actually fast but my eyes had to be deceived before truth could reveal itself. I keep on saying it but now I will do it. I'm getting rid of YOU, until I get over the fact that you have silently got rid of me atleast that's what I assume. Never had any word from you for a couple of weeks now, and yeah, I started this cold war but you should've proven me wrong. Buh-bye now. This time, it's for real but you'll always be my friend and I hope you'll always know. Buh-bye now. I hope I can do this...

Hold it... Stop... Don't touch anything! Before you proceed to the next part, I just wanna make it clear that the first paragraph I wrote has nothing to do with romantic love, it's all pure friendship. Okay? Alright? Uh-uh, I like! Hahaha...

Truly blessed is this year's Holy Week. Water from the faucet felt like it came down from heaven. Not that the weather's really, really hot but a nice bath, and a good night's sleep felt cleansing deep down to the soul. This time of the year, I felt baptized once again. One minute I was filthy with sins and short comings, the other I was cleansed. It felt good to be back in grace. I feel better now, I survived the harshness of last night's lonely thoughts. I have plans [I actually don't run out of it] and I think I have enough will to make things happen. Heavens have given me new life, I was saved once again, all oever again. I will be forever thankful...

Bright side naman beybehs!

Thursday. My cousin came. Wala lang. He treated the fam to merienda. A lot of net surfing, then we had our movie that night. Grabe! We stayed up till 4am. We watched Fear 2 and Monster Inc on the pc. Friday. Tv lang. Channel surfing. Then, we had a long chika till 3am. I also dived into my closet to pick some old stuffs and have my cousin choose what she wants and the rest will go to my other cousins who are coming next week. As much as I wanted to keep them, I had to give them away 'cause they simply wouldn't fit me anymore. I also... shoot! I forgot what I was going to write. Haha... I'm currently stalking celebrities. Haha... I'm doing an intensive research in Multiply.com. Haha... Writing down every site I can find of familiar, almost famous names. I can't believe I'm actually doing this, acting like a real fanatic. Don't get me wrong! All I care for in Philippine Showbiz is Cogie Domingo and if finding him means having to stealth through these people, so I will! Haha! Okay, okay, call me obsessed all you want lalo ka na *prrrt!* Haha! Ikaw nga! Speaking of Cogie, I saw na the pictures fo that girl that I wrote about some time last year. She won a date with Cogie. Inggit ako! When will I get a chance to meet him? *sigh*

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I like her, she's really nice unlike... Haha... Secret! Oh, just a reminder: I do not know her personally, okay? I hid her username intentionally. Peace!
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I plan to learn Vectors this Summer. I already tried na with the tutorial site I got but it's really difficult. I will try again, it's time fr something new. I just hope I don't get too lazy carrying it through.

Please don't think I'm disgusting but... Man, I stink na! I could smell myself because I covered my face with my sweaty shirt. I didn't want to but I can smell cigarette being smoked from outside of the house and I prefer getting dizzy with my own smell than suffocate from cigarette smoke. I will take my bath after I'm done with scanning these celebs' Multiply contacts. I will have them link here any time this week. But I do not guarantee that they are the real thing. Basta, that's what I found. But then again, I will eat first. I'm starving!

I read that Cogie has been spotted and his a bit chubby now. I bet looking healthier, he's cute as ever now. And bagay na kami! Yiiheee! Ride on, 'wag kayong KJ! You know this makes me happy! Ahahaha!!!

YIHEEE! MY 200th POST!!!

I LOVE!!!