cruel summer

My last post had been so nasty. I know but carrying on with such arrogance feels good esp. when something annoys you. So, deal with it! Guess what... I'm writing my Richard Gutierrez hate post soon. Watch me diss him. Haha!

I've turned into a bone collector just this morning. Haha! I saw these lizard bones outside my window and decided to preserve it by applying colorless nail polish. Well, there were no legs just the skull and the spine. Ants must have carried the legs to their lair and fed on it. Poor thing! Accidentally, I broke the spine by my facial wash tube. Haha!

I've been having strange dreams during my afternoon naps. Not that they are strange enough to become mysteries needed to be solved but I just don't see any connection to day-to-day life.

I survived the Midterm exams! I know deep in my heart that I passed. I don't need a high grades, I just wanna pass if that won't be too much to ask.

The words of Imaw are resonating in my head, it went something like: Merong mga pag-ibig na walang kaganapan... Minsan kailangang makuntetong ibigan sya mula sa malayo... Gaya ng bulaklak na ito, pwede mo syang hangaan pero di pwedeng angkinin dahil mamatay sya... Well, not exactly the exact words but they make every sense you can think of. As much as these words have been said so they can inspire, they gave me fear. What if I never get the only thing that completes me, or atleast get close enough to ponder on its beauty. What if I die without meeting Cogie? I've seen the Backstreet Boys close but we've never met, what if even seeing him from the same distance that I've seen BSB would never happen? Noooooooo!!!

Tomorrow is Earth Day? Have you done anything for your planet today? I haven't.

My lips are chapped and something in my tongue feels uncomfortable. It's a cruel summer. I'm using a whitening toner but I think I'm getting darker. Summer is bloody cruel! I never had beautiful midriff and it's gotten worse. I think I have to buy new sets of uniform for this coming school year, new clothes for Wash days. I have 50+ blouses in my closet, but I think only less than 10 fits me, 2 pants, 2 shorts [no real problem with indoor clothes, just that some needed to be sewn]. I look like a pregnant porpoise. Heck! I can't wait to be made fun of. I'm getting sick of it but I can't do anything about it, hahaha! The best thing I can think of is stay away from people. They make me suffer for being in-loved with eating but they are nowhere near to making me bulemic nor anorexic. I will lose weight, I will be fit again, I am going to wear my other clothes again but not through dieting or starving myself in anyway. Food is too good to miss out on, and a lot of people, mostly children in the world today are starving and I am not so I'm not going to waste time on dieting. In case those freaks do not know, the older people grow, the more food they need to take in. Yeah, I'm making an excuse for being fat, so what?

My birthday this year falls on a Wednesday, and I only have 1 subject on Wednesdays, and it's only in the morning. Now, I'm still undecided whether I will have my friends come over to eat just like last year or I elude and sleep the day away like my 18th birthday. I'm still finding reasons to do things and partying also needs a reason. We'll see... If ever, this will be the greatest disappearing act the world will ever see. Haha!

I already updated the links. More celebrities coming soon.

I'm craving something... the original Cup Noodles from Japan. Aaaahhh! How on earth will I get to eat that again without having anybody coming from Japan give it to me. Waaah!!! You know who you are... UWI NA KAYO, PASALUBONG KO!!!

Plans fail, and I'm thinking it through. I have to do something for the future of my music career. HAY, NAKU NAMAN TALAGA! WALA AKONG MAISIP!