stress level up

I've been stressing and badly needing a vacation! Yahoo! In less than two weeks time, school's out and I have to face other things concerning me and someone I know so well. I can't get over this getting over thingy and it's adding up to my stress. It's gonna be tough but have to get it done, even if it means having to face it alone. Thoughts are running through my head and I can already imagine what is going to happen. Maybe I'm thinking too much but isn't thinking what the mind is made for? I should have control of things, but everything seem to be so out of hand. I'm currently torturing myself by listening to silly, sentimental love songs and so far my desperate attempts of masochism are effective. Naiiyak na 'ko! Somebody save me!!! I kept on asking for signs and here it is, a big billboard dropped down from heaven and hit me hard on the head. There's you're sign! It's my fault, I know but never known it'd come to an end like this. I'm making hypotheses and running tests on what-ifs in my head for preparation. I'm so weak in deciding who I want, and who I don't want in my life. I'm thinking so much of other people and hardly myself. This is fear at it's height; Fear of rejection, humiliation, confusion, and the list goes on. This is great, just great!

I'm planning to get someone to enlist me during the enrolment so I can extend my vacation. I wanna have atleast a week away and I'm already planning the plans on how things are going to go. Even my dramatics, haha! The thought of vacation can't seem to cheer me up. Oh, the pain... it's a lot excruciating than the heat of the scourging summer sun.

Does Jimmy Neutron rock or what? Wala lang, I just love watching teen and toon shows in Nickelodeon and Disney Channel.

Senti pa rin ako...

I pushed you away, now I want you back. *sigh*

I can't lose focus now. The last part of Statistics is harder than the past lessons we had. Ang hirap, nalilito na 'ko!

I'm considering auditioning for PBB. Haha... Funny noh? But I'm serious. Atleast I don't have to sing to join. Haha... Magpapadiscover lang, and just for a laugh. It's not final yet. I'm still looking for someone to go with me. Hahaha... Watch out!

I lost track of the Secret Bible Week shows but I'll definitely catch the re-runs.

I guess that's it. Gotta blast!