I wish I may, I wish I might be that certain someone you wish for every night... 

3R: Renewed. Reborn. and Ready to Go!

Happy Easter! I have been saved and my renaissance has come. My point of view in life's just changed. I don't know till when's this going to last but I'll be living it while it's here. It feels like New Year and I think it is. *In with the good, Out with the Bad*. I wouldn't be talking about the end of the world for now though my brother just came up with another analysis about 'The End of days'. Maybe I'll tell you about the stuffs I've seen in the Bible Code some other time. I just dont feel like being Gothic at the moment because... nothing! I just don't. Besides, today's such a good day to spoil by brooding over the past. Welcome to the Infantry. I was supposed to watch Passion of the Christ last Holy Monday to help me contemplate but I missed it. The gang and I want out swimming the Friday before and came back the next day, I stayed in the house to watch over the store the Sunday before so I had no choice but watch a movie on Monday which I planned for Saturday. I was excited when I unboarded the jeep where I rode and went up the overpass to get to Robinson's Imus but I got frustrated. The movie I wanted to watch wasn't there anymore. But I had to watch something. Going there and back home without watching anything would be such a waste so I went up the cinema to see what's showing. I roved over the glossy, colored-posters they had in there posted. The new movies were interesting. But I really had to watch something. I remembered someone, Vin Diesel. He was interviewed in GMA 7's S-Files because he has a new movie. It's his first time to do comedy and that's interesting. I decided to see it. The Pacifier. The action hero touch was still there but as I watch Vin do comedy, it was like watching Dwayne Johnson a.k.a. The Rock. I won't describe the movie in detail because I'm not here to give movie reviews but all I can say is that... It was good. I want to watch it again... Uh oh... I gotta go and fix myself. I'll continue my post later. I still have class cards to get later... BUH-BYE, Y'All!!

Living with Backstreet Pride

Haven't slept again. Actually, i slept early like 9pm and I thought I had a good sleep. I was suppose to watch the Mulawin re-run but I said to myself that a longer sleep is better so I went on my slumber. Long was that sleep I had and so i thought. I woke up at the right side of the bed but at the wrong time of the clock. It's only 12am. Darn! I can hardly remember having an early and long sleep since I went to college. My sleeping routine has been totally destroyed. I don't sleep at night anymore; I sleep so early not at night but in the morning. That is just so nice and, HECK! I hate it. My face is peppered with pimples, shiny with oil, my eyebags are growing darker and bigger everytime and I can't build resistance. The cold virus is sure feeling at home inside me. I stayed up late again and the mosquitoes are having a feast, that is, a feeding frenzy on me. No wonder I'm immune from the diseases they carry. My brother was rarely bitten by mosquitoes because of his hairy arms and legs and one unfortunate night he was bitten he acquired dengue. And look at me, still lucky. I only had a lot of scars, insect bites, lesions, scratches but nothing as serious. Look at my legs, it's so flaw.... le... full! full of flaws. I never really had perfect skin but it's worse than before. There's never a day that you wouldn't see me scratching and it'd make you think it's disgusting and I'm enjoying but really, I'M NOT!!! I can't wait till it's June. I'm not really excited to go back to school 'cause I'm taking summer classes but a new album's coming out. For the first time in five years, the Backstreet Boys are finally releasing an album. I miss those guys. Finally, I'm back on track. Not that I wasn't but I'm going back to what I used to be, living with Backstreet Pride. Hahaha. These 'Rocker' stuff is getting old, I think, because even those who doesn't listen or support Rock music dresses up like those rockers. Fashion is supposed to give individuality but nowadays, as I see it, it's nothing more than just a trend. AH, WHO CARES ABOUT THOSE POSERS! I feel so alive because all my life I have looked up to them. They made me wanna be like them. They may have gone through a lot these past few years but that made me stronger because i feel like I'm a part of them though I haven't met them personally, not even once. As a child and as I've grown now, they still help build my dream. Awww... I don't wanna be so mushy but I'm just really glad their back. I'll be waiting for them to visit Philippines again and I'll be there when they come. Loads of love for BSB!

Simplicity is... just being simple?

My title doesn't seem to have a meaning, does it? Oh, well it just came out of my head and I don't find anything special about it because I wasn't really thinking at all; I just needed to give my blog a title. Tell me I'm a dork, c'mon tell me 'cause today feels like a dorky day. Anyway let's move on... Today's just another ordinary day like those I had yesterday, and the other day and a couple of days ago. one of those not-so-unusual days that I have nothing to do but sleep because I stayed up late the other night and woke up late the next day. And even if I slept early and woke up early I'd still wake up late because I'd probably go back to sleep when I wake up. Blah-blah!!! Zzzzz... I was working earlier on a blog entitled 'Reminiscence and Reflection', it was supposed to be my blog for the Lent but I had an itsy, bitsy, tiny, microspic, subatomic problem. My head's has glitch. I have all the idea in my head but I can't seem to patch it all together; Lent, like the past lents I had these past few years, is the time of years when I reflect and contemplate on everything from all the things I've done,things that'd been done to me, things I failed to do... everything. This year's should be like those I had before but it's just different. Most of my baggages were lifted for me, my mind is almost free from everything but something's still so wrong. Am I already free or I've just temporarily escaped? It's all coming back to me. My mind feels so clear but thoughts from past, present and future are messing in my head. I'm caught again. My weaknessess are eating me alive, swallowing me whole, the shadows are clouded my mind again, bound me with shackles in my arms and legs leaving me immobile. *Sigh* Oh, well! Something cool happened today. I got an e-mail from Blake Rhodes, CEO of Ice Rocket. He added my blog in his search engine and added it in his favorite. I don't really know him or even heard of him and not sure if he's just bluffing but that's really... uhhh... COOL! Hahaha! No other word to describe it because it's 5am and me brain's not functioning well so that's all I could think of. Har-har! I searched for him on Yahoo and what I found out is good and that's very... NICE? Nice! [See, my brain ain't working well so bear with me our get outte here!]

Another Oh, Well! I wasn't supposed to be back surfing until or after Easter but I realized I'm going to be busy next week because of the class card distribution, summer classes, planning the year ahead and everything so I guess today's the right time.

Oh, well! Oh, well! Matt's going to fix my blog's look and feel 'cause I don't know how and... oh, well. Last message and this one goes out to Matt:

"Di kita aawayin ngayon dahil may kailangan ako sa'yo. [Does that ring a bell?] Ha-ha-ha! Anyway, Salamat sa pagpre-presenta na mag-ayos ng blog ko... WeeeeeHeeeeeee..... Gawa mo rin ako ng radio blog, bigay ko sayo list ng song.

Nice, Matt! Salamat ng marami! Hee-hee! I'll make bawi na lang sa'yo 'tol next time. [Yan close tayo huh? Iilan lang tinatawag kong 'tol] Ang bait mo talaga! :D"

On the lighter side of Life...

Enough of the morbid and grotesque for now. School's almost over and I'm finally having my rest.. It's hibernation time!!! But on second thought, I'm not sure if I'm really resting this summer because I'm planning to have a summer job and take summer classes. Wait a minute. What job can i take this summer? Lemme think... WHAAAA!!! I can't think! Never mind I'll think about it some other time. I'll be missing many things about school this summer. I will miss how I mock my Technical Writing teacher's grammar, construction and diction. That is what keeps me awake in those sleep-conducive hours. My eyes are drooping but I never miss an opportunity to laugh whenever I catch her doing the same mistake. One of her famous lines is, "Are you clear?" and I just can't help but throw some giggles. I will miss how our professor in Structures of Programming Language play along with the punchlines that Ayen or Shaun usually makes. Our schedule this semester is not really that nice and all the time I wanted to sleep during those time of the day. I will also miss how our ReEd professor made sense everytime he speaks about the things that I don't give myself time to think of; How he reminded me of a mentor that did the same things as he did: teaching by touching hearts. I will be missing how our Logic professor relate symbols to reality and share ideologies... Darn! I wanted to continue writing my posts but I really feel gross and I have to take a bath... See ya'll later, crocs and gators... Wait a minute before I forget, This Good Friday there is a show on Studio 23, Bible Code and I bet it's something about the end of the world and I'll be loving it... Haaaayyy... Buh-bye!!!

The beast shall rise and the number is 666...

The beast shall rise when the 7 heads appear. Apocalypse... Ragnarok... Armageddon... Whatever we call, it's still the End of the world. I've read this post in Friendster about Revelation, the Popes and the 'Beast'. It was very interesting on my part because I have read the book of Revelations for a couple of times now but I've never tried to unlock the identity of the 'Anti-Christ' or the 'Beast' as called in the Bible. It was troubling at the same time, imagining that the beast will rise among the line of holy men. Below is a chart of the names of the popes and how many pope have there been with that name. Pius > 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 + 11 + 12 = 78 Leo > 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 + 11 + 12 + 13 = 91 Gregory > 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 + 11 + 12 + 13 + 14 + 15 + 16 = 136 Benedict > 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 + 11 + 12 + 13 + 14 = 105 John > 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 + 7 + 8 + 9 + 10 + 11 + 12 + 13 + 14 + 15 + 16 + 17 + 18 + 19 + 20 + 21 = 231 Paul > 1 + 2 + 3 + 4 + 5 + 6 = 21 John Paul > 1 + 2 = 3 78 + 91 + 136 + 105 + 231 + 21 + 3 = 665 Next papal name > 1 Therefore, the pope next to John Paul II will be the 666th. I'm not saying that the next pope is the anti-christ because there are possibilities that the beast will come out in this his time. But something is wrong about this statement. Maybe because I used a different bible but it is connected somehow. I opened the bible and looked for the page where this is written. I was looking at right chapter. I searched for it on Yahoo and Chapter 13 came out. The bible says: Then I stood on the sand of the sea. And I saw a beast rising up out of the sea, having seven heads and ten horns, and on his ten horns crowns, and on his heads a blasphemous name. -Revelation 13:1 There are signs but we refuse to see. It is written. There are people who claim to have identified the anti-christ. Some say it is George Bush. Like in one site I've seen, he had presented 'clues' that all lead to Bush. I also mentioned in my previous blog about Bill Gates. Same evidences were presented for this. They used numerology, Astrology, the predictions of Michel Nostradamus and the Bible. In Astrology, a particular date was given through an astrological chart, which pointed out World War III, August 1, 2007. These things are really mind boggling. I still recall Nostradamus prediction about the Twin Towers and World Trade Center, It said something about the anti-christ wearing a blue turban and comes from the East. It could be Saddam Hussein or Osama bin Laden who both came from the East but 'East' could not only refer to Far East Asia but could also mean East of USA, well, I don't really know. Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six. - Revelation 13:18 Maybe the people who have made this computations and made their own revelations about Revelation understood. But the Revelation is not the only reference there are also verses found in the Bible not only in the New Testament but the The Old as well. I find it amazing how they find time to gather resources and evidence to prove it. I found it funny when one site names David Hasselhoff to be the anti-christ. He is not as powerful as Bush but again no one really knows who. In Islam, the anti-christ is called Dajjal and there also proofs in the Qur'an and the Hadith about the anti-christ's identity but none of them really gave the name. Is it Marilyn Manson? You'd probably laugh. Did the devil really appeared in the cloud of smoke during the September 11 bombing? These are signs and I know it... Ha-ha-ha. It gives me the creeps to think about it but I leave it to you... What do you think?

He sees dead people...

Ohhh... creepy... but I'm loving it. Yesterday, we had a class on Logic and the back door of the class room was opened and our professor asked one of my classmates to close the door because he sees a lot of passers by though there weren't really anybody passing by the corridor. It kinda creeped me out but I was excited to know such existence. He's a man of science and who would think that he sees those things? I love scary things and it got me even excited when he told that one time one of his students with third eye was shooting a video with him, saw the spirit behind him. I knew he was scared but I knew, too, that he is used to these things but chooses to ignore it. I think he's the one on the school paper (HF), a faculty member who had encountered the spirits in our college building. (I loved that story in HF that features that told the encountered with entities in those building as told by the actual persons who have had the encounters.)He even joked that that is the reason why he doesn't sing the "Spirits" theme song *sings* 'Close your eyes, Dry your tears...' How I wish I'm clairvoyant too, maybe I could have fed my hunger for such an adventure satisfactorily. But I know God has a reason for not giving me such gift and just the same, I'm thankful. I remembered something. Something about battles. It struck me because it's something deep and i don't hear it everyday. I recall the first week of class and the first class we had in ReEd. Our professor spoke something about a "Battle between Good and Evil" in our class. It meant something to me. The things I read in the book of Revelations flashed in my mind... The mark of the beast... Things about the end of the world always interested me. There was one time, sometime in 1999 that they claim Bill Gates had a pact with the devil that made him rich that instant, same incident like that of I think, Nicholas Flamel... I'm not sure because things mix up in my head and I hardly remember things... Anyway, back on the subject... The mark of the beast... What could it be? "It will be marked on the forehead of many, the mark of the beast. and those with the mark will..." Ahhh.. I don't really remember but it kept me thinking. What if the rumor about Bill Gates is true, then the mark of the beast is with us , all. And we all go to the dark side. It also kept me wondering if the things I get myself into could be the thing that will throw my soul into eternal darkness as prophesied. Life is good and living life is a lot better but morbid as it seems, we can't ignore the things that are at hand. My friend think it's plain OA or just dark-humored of me to say that "I'll be dead by then" or "I'm dying tonight" or when I go to sleep, "If I will still wake up tomorrow", "I'm laying myself down my coffin" or me calling my bedroom 'My grave' or 'My masoleum' but "HEY!" who knows when will be our last day? You tell me. NGINIIIG!!! I'm glad they have such show. I miss watching "Scariest Places on Earth" it gives us the truth that "MODERN" people nowadays refuse to see: The earth wasn't made for humans, plants and animals alone. There are things in between and we have to respect them as we respect ourselves and our fellow human beings. I can't really say that we still respect nature because it's obvious how we're killing it slowly. It hurts me to see what's happening and only a few seems to care... *Sigh* I'm not saying that I haven't done anything to do harm to Mother Earth but atleast I don't go to such extent as others do... Man, here I go again... Blabbering about things that doesn't really concern most of the population of the planet. I'm such a small voice but if every small voice in this planet could speak together no matter the language, they'd be heard but until today not everybody can realize that. Can anybody tell me, Where's the love? NOW, Do you get my point or do I have a point at all?

Flashlight... Spotlight... Looks like some backlight... Dang!

This seems to be my destiny...

It will come to pass...

My boys are coming back! It's been five years now and it's time for them to rise again from a deep sleep. I will live again... I found my old blog and it's still alive. That's one good thing I found here in blogspot, THEY DON'T DELETE ACCOUNTS. My last blog in that one was March 23, 2004. Would you believe that? Haaayyy... I don't have much to say today. But wait, I remember something. I had a bad night last night. Ha-ha-ha! My friends don't know that I have a very short temper and most of the time, I keep it to myself and when I get home, that's when i start to throw my things around. I don't want to describe it but I really had a very bad night last night. My room was left a wreck. Well, I never really cleaned that though there are times that I do when I'm in the mood... Ahh! Nevermind. I just wanted to share. It's quite late now. Buh-bye for now. I still have lots to do on the net. Nytee-nyt! Ay, Good Morning na pala. Good Morning to me.