Resolution

Last Thursday I woke to the longest, adventured-packed dream I ever had. If I remember it right, it began with something that involved some of the cast of EK3. Yeah, seriously. They were my special guest in my very special dream. Then the next scene was inside my room with gays wearing colorful dresses with colorful fans conversing with me; we were making fun of something. Then I went out of my room straight to the kitchen with a possessed faucet. It wasn't our kitchen but looked something like my friend's kitchen. The faucet was possessed because it talked and would change temperature at will then I called out to Sakura [Card Captor] to exorcise the faucet but couldn't so she calls out to Sailor Venus who does the job. Then there was this toilet hanging at the wall like a wall fan and I was holding a dustpan then I went out of the house where there were animals. I was going to our neighbor's house and on the way, the road was wet, and I used the dustpan to take some water from the wet road and threw it to the animals I saw. Then they started following me. Before I got to where I was going, those animals were already after me so I had to run back home. They followed me home. Some of them were already inside and I was hiding at the back of our house. My mom covered a moose, and a bear [that folloed me] with a blanket and led it to one of our rooms. I went back into our house to check on the other animals that were after me and they were still there but they didn't see me except for this little brown talking monkey who ran to me right away and I ran into my room to hide. Darn, that part with the minkey scared me to death. I don't know why. What he was saying scared me but I didn't really understand because it seemed like some alien language. I woke up immediately and slept back again. Another dream followed but I can't remember. But it was good. Weird, but good.

I had another wonderful dream the next day but I can't remember though I hadn't really been sleeping so well. I have been if the case is how long I sleep but my sleeping pattern is rather not so good since I'm awake all night and would wake up the next day at noon.

After the earthquake in Taiwan a few days ago, the internet has been so f*cked up. F*ck that earthquake. I want some tsunami! Haha, go tsunami! Kill 'em! Grrr..

I had a very meaningful chat with a friend last night. I wanted to be purely hionest but at some point I had to lie because.. Let's just put it this way.. Gomen ne sunao ja nakuta, yume no nakanara ieru... Yeah, if you can understand what that means, you'll know what I'm trying to say. It's just not me to say what I feel or be fully honest about things like that. I don't wanna lie but I'm not really sorry for what I did. I just did what I thought was right, atleast for me.

The year ends and beginds in a few hours and.. Time for the tiger to eat the pig! I was born in the year of the Fire Tiger and the coming year is the year of the Fire Pig. Chinese horoscope says that this will be a good year for me. I hope so, really hope so.

I know I have to say goodbye to this year and I think it's just about time. I have lost so much and gained so much too, most of which is weight. I just have to, I need to and I want to change. I've been feeling like a lsoer for so long now, and if you've been reading my posts for the past year, it'd be no big secret. I let everything get me and bring me down. It made me weak and stopped me from standing my ground, and somehow I lost it. I wanted to win it back and I have to gain back my momentum in order to win my place back. I'm not really thinking of getting it back, it's more like I wanted to claim another ground for myself and make a kingdom out of it.. I am a fire tiger and I can burn all the negativites away and start another kingdom of fire. Rekka Shinnen! Bwahaha! More like hell, right? Haha, I had the wrong metaphor. Nevermind. Anyway, about the losses I had, I almost lost confidence in the very first talent I discovered and nurtured, drawing. That's like the worst thing that this year had done to me. I've been rediscovering myself everyday, and the world seems to close in on me and pull me down. Some mysterious force pushes me back up but they're just too strong and I'm near to losing. I just gotta keep on fighting and survive.. STARSTRUCK! Hahaha! Nah, but seriously..

HAPPY NEW YEAR, ONE AND ALL!

Can't wait to get back to school and grab the second book of the trilogy I was reading, His Dark Materials by Philip Pullman. I'm already done reading The Golden Compass before the exams but they don't allow borrowing during Christmas break so I didn't get to borrow the The Subtle Knife then The Amber Spyglass then.. I will become Lyra Belacqua. Hehe..

I am having fun with my otaku/anime addict friends. It's so good to know people with the same interest as yours, isn't it? Wala lang, I still love my friends but I'm just glad I made new friends. They make me think of my future collection, can't wait to buy them, Weeeeee!!!

I am so running out of things to write, so maybe I should stop for now. It's really nice that some people actually takes time to read my blog..

THANK YOU!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! GOD BLESS US ALL!!!

Holiday

Number 1! Number 1! Number 1!

Oh, yeah! I went to watch Enteng Kabisote 3 and I wasn't surprised that it the cinema was a Standing Room [please excuse the grammar]. I love watching movies on Christmas day because seeing so many people is fun [atleadt for me] except for some things that happened today. On my way to SM, I rode a trike to Imus. I love taking the backride so I did then there was this guy with "icky-looking skin" beside me. I tried my best to avoid him by clinging tightly to the other side of the trike, since he was seated between me and the driver but he would still, somehow, bump me. Not that he's too contemptible but if you've seen him, you would not want to get near him too. I mean, I'm not sure if it was scabies or dried chicken pox scars on his skin and skin germs are so easy to pass and catch. Nevermind.. Okay.. Now went I got to the SM Cinemas, I had to walk a few times back and forth looking for the ticket booth. The third floor was full of people and it took me some minutes before I had my turn to buy my ticket. I don't really mind having to watch the movie standing up for two hours but then.. I was standing at the stairs that lead to the balcony when someone stood behind me. That was really nothing until I can feel something from behind. I felt something slowly rubbing at the left side of my behind. I have no idea what that was and I don't think I wanna know because that really disgusted me so even if my position was already fine I decided to move away and find another place inside the cinema to watch. After a few seconds when I left that man went away to and left the cinema. So it's obvious.. That f'n perverted man! Grrr.. Experiences like this makes me wary of the human male species. Well, my friends [boys] are not like that but I still cannot understand the reason for the existence of such behavior whether male or female. Two words: REALLY DISGUSTING! I was really glad when I found this nice seat in the balcony, the aisle. At first there was this annoying old woman who sat at the armpiece of the seat beside me and carried a child on her lap whose shoes are hitting my back and somehow pulling my hair but it's not so long till they found an seat and went there.

EK3 rocks! I loved that gay ogre with Shintaro Gokuyami, KC, Ta-KCs-Castle, hahaha! The graphics is superb! Now my want to be a graphic artist is stronger [ehem.. excuse the graphics again.. please..].

Anyway, Christmas eve [last night] wasn't so jolly when everybody says it should be. It can't be when someone's throwing their frustrations at you. Some stuffs can't be helped and we can't always keep things from happening but do I really have to be the one to always catch it all? They make me feel sorry for being the way I am, inducing self-pity. I'm getting really sick of this kind of life. One less thing to celebrate. Well, I'm always sad during the holidays [Christmas and New Year]. I don't know, something about this season makes me sad. That's actually the reason why I went to the cinema alone. I could've invited a friend to come with me but I needed some time alone. I just wish I could be happier, Merry as the greeting say..

Merry?.. Christmas..

Nothing Much

I hate my typos. My English becomes a disaster.

Yesterday, Camille and I went mall-hopping. She's, like, the oldest friend I've ever had. We've been friends since gradeschool. We went for an Anime Scavenger Hunt. We didn't get to really buy anything big since neither of us brought that much money. Our hunt brought us from SM Bacoor to SM Southmall to Festival Supermall and back to Lotus. Something about that day excited me.. I finally found a Ceres DVD and I'm definitely coming back for it. I'm starting, hopefully, a loading business soon, and waiting for my cousin's payment I'm making for her dance group, and I'm still waiting for the results of the other contests I joined [sana I won kahit isa lang.].

About the book I'm planning to write, so many ideas coming out here and there. I just hope it turns out to be a good one.

Fushigi Yuugi is still shown in Animax but too bad it's already been weeks since our cable's been cut and even if it isn't.. we're not subscribed to Animax. Kainis.

I'd like to thank, whoever you are, the one reading my blog from California.

One more night before Christmas Eve and I have nothing much to write. I guess that'd be it for now.

Four Deaths Before Christmas

Last Saturday, our four newly-born [read: barely a week old] kittens were deliberately killed by a male cat. That's one fact of life in the animal world that I don't understand. Male animals would usually kill youngs so they could get the females to mate again. In the human world, as much as I want to believe it, humans mate out of love so they can leave descendants and life can survive [I didn't learn that by myself, I read it from Ceres. Hehe..] while animals seems to programmed to survive and mate as much as they can. Life can be tough when you're an animal [even for domesticated cats] but then again, how am I to know? The circle of life turns and the innocent is always the victim.

The time I turn off this computer, I'll be starting to write the book I've been planning to write for so long now. When I get to finish, I'll be giving copies to some close friends and try to get it published. No teasers just yet.

I finished my shopping yesterday though it isn't that much. I usually get tired easily but yesterday was just fine. Except for that old man who sat beside me inside the jeep. He smells like that oil used to relieve body pains. Ewwweey! Anyway, I saw Normel, JC and Oche while I was scouring boutiques to buy my clothes. I had a hard time choosing my pants since all I can see were jeans and I'm so not wearing jeans ever again. I wanted to buy another top but I just don't like the fad these days like that top that is so long it goes down up to your thighs. Before I went to SM, I already bought my blouse from CD Jeans and it's discounted. Haha, LAHVET!

Wala lang, I just visited the Penshoppe website and saw Victor and could imagine that if Tooya [Ayashi no Ceres] was real, they would have the same sexy body and pretty hair though Victor's is black while Tooya's is fashionably reddish-black. I am such a crazy kid wishing an anime/manga character was a real person. Haay..

That'd be it for now. Merry Christmas, everyone!

2 Parties in 2 Days

Forgive me for being lazy. I just like being one. Been busy from last week being exam week then two parties two days after. I believe I failed some of my exams and I don't really mind because.. Wala. I just don't.

Thursday at Erika's. Man, that was fun. I didn't really think I'd enjoy and I even planned on not coming but I'm glad I did. The food was good [hamonado, my fave chopsuey, sweet and sour, lumpia..] plus the laughs we had was delightful. I had a few drinks and we went home by 6pm. I think the others stayed till dawn and gotten themselves drunk. Then Friday, I wen to meet Alvin and the others at Robinson's so we could go together to Renan's. Mike gave us a ride. Ayen and the others came earlier. The other came after 6pm. We waited for the others before we could start to drink and Renan was busy running back and forth to entertain his guests and I bet that was tiring. Man, the food was very, very good especially that one in white sauce which is his mom's specialty. There was joking and laughing all around and we were very noisy. They were trying to get Jerome drunk. Micoi was the official photographer since he's the only one who brought a digicam. After drinking, we rested and went to the fair[perya] at Dasma by 1am. We went back at Renan's and sleptover though I didn't really get to sleep. And then we ate breakfast in the morning before we left and went home.

Sayang. I was planning to bring my friend, Camille, at the party but she was busy with their thesis but she really wanted to come and I wanted her to meet my friends. Di bale, next time na lang. So, that's just about how my past days were.

Till next post na lang!

Awhile

It's been a while since I last wrote anything. So much had happened and I'm just feeling lazy. Let's see.. SInce classes started last November I've already finished 3 books, all varying in length and thickness. There was By the River Piedra, I Sat Down and Wept by Paulo Coelho, Confessions of a Mask by Yukio Mishima, and His Dark Materials Book 1: The Golden Compass by Philip Pullman. Nicey. These books had so far been inspirational, magical, and.. I don't know. I just loved it. I need those books with me. Time goes so slow when you're doing nothing esp. when you're doing nothing and you'd have to wait for hours till your next class.. Bummer!

I've completed downloading the Ceres Art Book and also finished reading the scanlations I downloaded. I wanted the real thing but that'd do for now since I don't have it yet because of... Blah! Blah! Nevermind.

It's been a while since the cable's been cut and I've already missed out a lot on my fave show like Hanna Montana and the new season of Dark Oracle. I don't miss it that much though since I've learned to let go and this isn't really the first time. Things just happen and not preventing it cannot be prevented. I have no choice. This is my life.

Exams have started and my nose just finished bleeding after Physics. 2 down and 3 to go. I hope I pass. I don't need a high grade. Just make me pass.. Ohh..