What's up with what...

W0w! I've been in vacation for almost two weeks now and it's kinda boring yet interesting. I'm too lazy to do anything but too busy to do something else. Blogging is quite a nice way to wind up. And I needed that sentence to add up to this. *Hehehe!* Hmm... Tom is Survivor Palau's sole survivor. Ian gave up his last chance for a million bucks just to retain his friendship with Tom and Katie. *Awww!* Friendship really is the most noble thing of all. (Uhm, is friendship a trait or a virtue? I dunno what to call it so I used 'thing'.). Darn! I haven't watched it yet and I have to wait till Saturday. Not having cable on the tv really sucks. Thank you, CBS for the website! Like yesterday, I've seen the final length of the Amazing Race but it's like already week or two when Matt posted it on his blog. A big shout out to the black people. Uchenna and Joyce won just like the two other black couple who won the race before. Dang! Why did GMA have to reschedule Encantadia? Now, have to decide if I will enroll the Physics Lab or skip it so I can go home early to watch Encantadia. Sigh. I wanna be with my friends at BCS in that subject but I also wanna watch Encantadia though Renan thinks the story's getting corny. Well, I still have a lot of time to think about it, might as well forget it for now. Darn! Darn! The new school year will start a new life for me. I won't be with my friends that often anymore. But I guess I have to ready for it. Don't know what to think. I have plans but schooling without 'em isn't one of it. I think that'd be it for now. I'm running out of ideas and articulating is giving me a hard time. I'll be back when I get back!!!

The End of Days...

It has come... the end of Summer classes that is. I got one of my classcards this morning and I'm glad that after 3 takes, I finally made it! I passed the freakin' math subject. I don't have to wake up early anymore. Well, atleast not until June. But it kinda makes me sad that I won't see my new friends and crushmates (like Carlo Cruz, Edd Arellano, and... Melchor Oribiana? WHAAAT?!<--I'll explain some other time.)anymore. I'm just so glad I found some of them in Friendster. *Aww!* I hope I come across them along the road next sem and ride in the same jeep (like some new peopz I got on my crush list) going home with them like this oh-so-lovely summer. I enjoyed all my classes (especially Constitution with the dancing 'Philosophy teacher who teaches Constitution'), made some new friends (like Kat, Darwin, 'Saint', Jenny, Erin, Gino...), passed my seatworks and quizzez (I rocked in Math! Yeah, baby!), read some books (Alamat ng Gubat and PLNH, both by Bob Ong, drawn some cartoons (BCS1103, the Animation)... Wow! But not everything's been good all the time. There's always this point in time that I reach my breaking point and just... BREAK! *Ugh!* Nevermind. I'd rather not talk about it until I could already say I fought and won over it... Blah-blah! Scroll down, people! Behold! One of the cutest guys I met this summer. His name is... Edd!!!

He's my classmate in Phil. Constitution, an in-coming ECE sophomore (I got his section: 1-3; 2-3 next sem!!! *Weee!*), he's really nice, cute and smart, I think he has a girlfriend *Sigh!* and he already accepted my invitation in Friendster. That is where I got his picture and made it into a collage. I think like him. Oh, wait! Not for anything but I think we have a lot in common and can get along well... I wanna tell a lot more about him and my summer but maybe some other time 'cause it's already four in the morning and I have to sleep... Nyty!!!

Psychedelic... Funky... Beautiful... Art is how you define it... 

Forgotten existence and unfathomed reasons...

You don't remeber me but I remember you...

That goes out to 95% of all the people I know in my entire life. Sad is not the word but forgotten. They've all forgotten to remember I'm still here, Hello! I'm asking for help but nobody would care to; not even bother to tell you, "Hey, I don't wanna help you. Scram!". That is really nice and I'm glad I can finally shift. I'll be going my own way now. It's just makes me sick to my stomach knowing you're ready to be there for them if they need you but they'd all walk out when it's your turn to ask for their f*cking presence. Some soliloquy! Things happen for a reason and maybe it has a reason though I don't wanna understand b'cause if I do, I'd have lesser things to brood about and my loneliness wouldn't be complete without it. I just wish I don't have to get through this as often as I do. I'm wrecking my brain just because of repetitive, deja-vu like, sickening turn of events -- happens all the time but I never get used to it.

I've nowhere else to go but I cannot stay where I don't belong...

Arayt, here I go again. The whole of humanity is blaming me for the virus and spywares that is currently infesting and slowly destroying the PCs system. It's me and my 'downloads' again. Pornographic sites and sex-related stuff are popping out from nowhere and the blame is on me again. I hate this life. It makes me more sickened of living with the same people, in the same house, sharing the same computer, arguing the same arguments... I wanted to reason out but at the same time I don't want to. It's hard to understand but I can't let people know how I feel. I wanna leave this house but I have nowhere else to. I have my reasons for doing things but they don't know that and I won't tell. If thay wanna know, they gotta learn it but they wouldn't learn it from I assure it. I've laid out my plans and I should have less room for errors and delays. I need some distractions to help me out on my way to success. I just hope things will turn out fine in the end...

I fought it a thousand times but now I'm leaving...

Sleep all day. Sleep all night.

Last Friday was a very happy Friday. For thew first time I got to talk to Junell, my long time showbiz crush. He's not in showbiz anymore but I still like him. It was 05:30 pm here in RP and 02:30 in the morning in Utah. I saved our conversation in MS Word because... Nothing. I just feel like it. I sound so boring, don't I? I feel so bored and tired today. I skipped my last class and went home early to sleep. I just don't feel like going to my Consti class today. I'm so sleepy. Maybe because of the medicine I took this morning. I have colds again. I can't sleep early but I also can't sleep too long because I have to go to school. I'm glad we only have 2 more weeks to endure and finally I can have my real vacation; my sleepless night, my art sessions, my samurai practice (nobody's really teaching me to use the samurai, but I'm just playing the sword like I see it on tv, how they use it and pretending I fight with it, cool eh?). There's nothing so interesting about me this week except for the Encantadia site Renan made and I also take credit for. I am updating the write-ups. There's nothing else I can do for now because I don't spend time enough to make websites as beautiful as this one. http://ybarro.blogspot.com <-- People know me there as Amihan. It's so nice to know that we have visitors who support the site and the series to which it was dedicated for. It feels so gratifying though I'm not the one who made the site. Anyway, we'll be moving in to a bigger site and it excites me to be a part of it and having it with my friend. Well, that's just it for today. I'll be back again maybe later, or tomorrow, or the next day... Dunno but I'll be back when I have something new to post... *Waves a Ms. Universe wave* I love you all!