Finding Moon Kingdom

We all have to grow up and he left so he could grow even more more but I can still imagine 5 microphones on stage. BSB will never be the same without Kevin but I believe that though they're one man less, they'll always be the Backstreet Boys I loved and grew up with. I still remember the days that I built my dreams around them, hoping someday I get to perform on stage with all five of them. He may have gone his separate way but I will never love them any less than I used to.I still need you, I still care about you..

I feel like a kid again. Actually, I still am a kid. Some of the things I thought I've forgotten are coming back to me one piece at a time. I'm starting to miss how I used to love Sailor Moon, how I wish to find my own Tuxedo Mask/Mamoru Chiba, and all that fantastic powers. I used to have this collection of Sailormoon paperdolls and cards, and I love drawing her a lot. I even tried to figure out how to throw my hair into pigtails like hers. Haha. I was obsessing on her and the other Sailor Soldiers. Now, I'm starting to love her all over again. I'm thinking of buying videos so I can watch it all again. When you're growing, you tend to forget the things that makes you happy when you were a child. They're not always real but they keep you alive. My world of fantasies is my Neverland. I was the Moon Princess. Then it reminded me, why can't I be a child again? I have changed a lot on the outside over the years but there still survives a seven-year-old child within me. Like the rest of the things I had in my memory, she never died but has fallen into a long slumber. After a decade, she's woken and like all children she has to be nurtured and cared for. Yay me!

Haha.. okay that was bitin. I'm just so running out of ideas tonight. So.. deal with it!

The plane has landed. They're here and it was a blast. I just wished I watched. Haha. WWE Raw then now Smackdown.. I've been missing on a lot. I'll just check tomorrow for uploads on the on last night's show. Aw..

I feel like staying up all night tonight. The night creature in me is not sleepy yet and has a lot of things in mind. Ta-tuh!

Semestral Break

Boredom gets me yet again. This is the time of the school year that you could spend just slacking off, doing nothing but it's getting quite old. Yeah, you're relaxed but you're so relaxed you don't have to think of anything 'cause you just can't. You're not so bothered but you're not inspired either. i want to do something but I lack the will and inspiration, and the ability to think of what to do. Pretty lame, huh? I know. At night, for more a few days now, I'd spend the late hours of the night staring into oblivion, imagining nothing, just sitting or lying down my bed,wide awake in total darkness. That would usually be good but at this moment, I feel completely bummed out. Okay, there's the cable and the broadband, and the store.. And then what? The computer's speakers are messed up and loses the sound every now and then and I don't think I can watch one whole movie properly. I have no radio in my room, my phone has no headset, I still don't have the movie VCDs I want to see, I want to watch a movie but no school is always equal to no money. Man, you have no idea how bored I am right now, this very momeny. Grrr..

Yay, Love 2 Love Season 12 Grand Finale is up this Sunday will soon be over. You see, If you've been reading my past posts, you'd know how much I love Cogie Domingo but this stint has been his worst. I'm not going to bash the show, nor the cast, nor the plot but I was just.. really.. very.. pretty much disappointed. Period. I am very glad he didn't get the roles he was supposed to get in Sugo and Captain Barbell because those are GMA's "mediocre" creations. I know the people behind them worked really hard and those are both topraters but compared to the other productions, they seem like leftovers plus I don't like RG. Ahaha. I believe I've said enough so.. that's it. I'm so over thrashing on RG so.. Blah! I'm solid Kapuso but I really have to say that one. Ahaha. Sorry, RG! Phew!

Did I say nothing's bothering me? Actually, there is but nothing big. I just think I flunked Physics. It will not be confirmed until I get my grades on the 20th. Bother is not the exact verb I was ust thinking. But not the serious thinking, thinking. Wooo-whatever! It's just that I won't be taking my Physics 2 with my friend if I fail and repeating Physics one will take another sem of migraine and nosebleed and if you think that's the worst thing that could happen, imagine my parents reminding me of that failure for the rest of my college life until I graduate. Torture? Tell me about it.

Right now, I'm so happy. My new crush, J.A.T., accepted my Friendster invitation. Then I realy like this guy ['cause he's so cute and very sweet] even if we haven't met [and I'm not referring to Cogie].. And I'm so in-love with SD [Super Dollfie]. It's the cutest thing ever. I was never really into dolls but I can't keep my eyes from staring at them. I wish I can have one someday. Just one but someday will not be anytime soon because seeing the website of the company that makes them, they are very expensive and it'd take me years before I can afford them..

*wish-wish*

Languish

At umasa pa nga ako... POTEK!

Well, what do you know? Even weirdos feel new weird feelings. Ahaha! It's not really serious, just entertaining myself with lovesick thoughts. Feeling good and bad vibes lately and at the same time. They're confusing me about how to feel for certain things. All in all, they're telling me I need change and it's about to happen one of these days. Whatever! We'll just see...

Anyway, exams are over and... I'M FREE! YEEEESSS! Ahaha. Yay me! My friends are planning an outing this Saturday but with only 300 bucks in my pocket, I'm not so sure if I can come.. Dang! Chances are.. I might miss out on this one.. again.. like last year... bummer! Aw!

Just thinking.. What if your gut feeling's telling you that you're dying soon.. or tomorrow.. or a few minutes from when you started getting the strange feeling? Are you going to push through what you've been holding of for so long, for years? How will you prepare for your departure? And why am I asking this? I've just read some parts of my friend's blog that I've never tried to read. He wrote the entry a few days or weeks, not sure, before he died. He was given signs, he felt it was coming, he was scared and.. I can tell that even if it's easy to say, you don't really get to ready yourself instantly. I always say that the only thing I fear is the day that I have lost fear of anything because he who fears nothing loves, and loving nothing makes you less of a human but what if my instinct, or some psychic feeling I have tells me that soon it will be my time to go, how will I possibly feel? How am I going to handle that? And knowing that I haven't done yet everything I wish to have done in my life before I retire, and then realize that I'm going to die, how can I be ready to depart? When you're being told that you're next, will you still be given a chance to do that one last thing you wanted most of all even all the others you wished were not granted? Okay, look. I'm not trying to be morbid (my gothic days will be laid to rest until the next gloomy day of my life befalls me) but I'm just so filled with so much hope that the word ETERNITY is being sang inside my heart. If you've heard Gary V's song In Another Lifetime that said, I do believe what wasn't meant to be wasn't meant for now and someday you'll see, In a place and time we never know, I'll be standing there waiting for you, you'll know what I mean.

lovesick.. lovesick.. i'm just a little lovesick.. carry on with your lives.. don't mind me..

Cool, colds, and coldness

Runnin' running... Runny nose.. haha! My nose is running, running with colds. Aww! Darn cold virus!

Just one more week to endure and off to some freakin' dang chillin'. Haha. The mock job interview for EPP last Saturday was way easier than I expected. I thought I was just chatting with an old professor but.. that was it. The talked we had was really fun because.. I don't know, I just enjoyed. It's just like talking to one of my friends. I bet my classmates got nervous.. Haha. Serves 'em right. Ahaha. Trust me.

I don't know him but I know he's a good man. We are one good Kapuso less. Paalam, Dan Campilan.

A few more months and most of my closest friends are graduating. Haay, I'm going to miss them. Aww.. I miss them already. I wonder how next school year will be without them. There will still be a few of my friends left but very few. Plus I will be left to hang out or having to bear people who are very good at making you feel so unwelcome. They are nice, civil people but not as friendly and warm as "my people". But hey, that's fate. it's just part of the big plan and it's not gonna be forever. Just one more year. After March 2008, it'll be over and I can start a new life and make new friends without having to neglect and forget the old ones. Cheers to that!

I'm starting to feel the good vibes of the coming sem break. Aw, the sweet word.. I can hear it being sang to me by a choir of angels.. VAAA-CAAA-TIOOOOOOOOOON!!

Guess who went to our school to shoot this time. Michael De Mesa. i saw him from the fourth floor. I didn't get to approach to ask for our picture be taken because the time I was done with my mock interview, the scene they were taking is over. Ahaha. I'm not his fan. I'm simply STARSTRUCK. Awww..

Aahon na

Maghihintay Ako
Atlantika Love Theme
Performed by Regine Velasquez

Malayo man ang umaga sa buhay kong ito
May liwanag ng pag-asa na sisilayan ko
Ikaw na s’yang tugon sa aking panalangin
Puso ko’y wag sanang biguin
Dinggin ang bulong ng alon at hangin

Ating tadhana
Magkaibang mundo
Bakit pilit tayong pinaglalayo
Alam kong batid mo
Tayo'y iisang puso
Kaya’t maghihintay ako

Kay tagal ng panahon
Hanap-hanap ka
Poot ko’y napawi ng makapiling ka
Ngunit naglaho ka
Sa akin ay nawalay
Bakit ang agos ikaw ang tinangay
Mula sa dagat ng aking buhay

Ating tadhana
Magkaibang mundo
Bakit pilit tayong pinaglalayo
Alam kong batid mo
Tayo'y iisang puso
Kaya’t maghihintay ako

Maghihintay ako

Malunod man sa lalim ng sakit
Aanhon din
Sa paglalapit ng langit
Alam kong ikaw
Saka ay babalik
Alam kong ikaw ay babalik

Ating tadhana
Magkaibang mundo
Bakit pilit tayong pinaglalayo
Alam kong batid mo
Dahil iisang puso
Maghihintay ako

Maghihintay ako

Isisiwalat ng buwan ang inililihim ng karagatan. Aahon na ngayong gabi ang Atlantika pero sira pa rin and cable pero kahit paano may kulay na ang tv.



I bet this will be another hit like Mulawin and Encantadia. And I love the theme song. I can't wait. Wala na 'kong masabi.

Finally, there's school tomorrow. I've been on vacation for too long now and exams are up next week. Aww, I missed school. And pretty boring just staying home doing nothing. I mean, it's fun but not always when you don't get to get a break from doing nothing. Haaay..

All good now

Well not exactly all but atleast it's better.

Thursday was stormy and the wind was blowing like mad. Scary. I didn't see it with my eyes but I heard him blow with all fury and no remorse. He heralded destruction to those who sill cross his path. Milenyo (Millenio), the storm that he is, stormed his way in. To the eyes of a commoner, he is just one of the storms that comes every year this time of the year but to me he was a cavalryman commissioned to claim lives and properties in place for all that was forcibly taken away from her. He was sent for revenge. Nature is his mother and the son, out of love, does what his mother bids. He did his errand well.

Okay, time to lighten up. Hehe.. Did that scare you? It better.. Haha!

The worse we got was a brownout for more than 24 hours and missing a day of bath because the subdivision's tank won't pump water without electricity. We experienced a a few hours of electricity through our neighbor's generator but it didn't last for the whole night. A night without electirc current is hellish 'cause it got the mosquitos on a feast again. You can't keep the doors closed and the mosquitos helped themselves and paid me a little visit. After the storm, the streets looked literally like "DINAANAN NG BAGYO". Leaves and stems are everywhere and a big piece of plywood even got flown to our roof. Hehe. Probably from one of the neighbors. Haha. Tough luck!

Friday. Electricity was back by 9pm, just in time for the Majika Finale. And my cousins came 'cause there's still is no electricity at their boarding house. Also it was the last time I ever played with Ponyang. The youngest cat in the family. My cousins and I went to a major bonding. Wahaha. Saya. We took pictures, talked about a lot of things, had some laughs. We were up until 4am. Haha, tatag!

Saturday. Fiesta. Nothing big. My mom just cooked a big dish for the family and for sharing to some of the neighbors. And though everyone's happy and hyped I took a moment to mourn. Ponyang is gone. Some heartless jeepney driver, who doesn't even live here in our are, hit her and crush her head to death. I didn't see it, and I was blessed because as my cousin described it... it's heart-wrenching. Akang, the mother, went to her dying child who is still somehow moving. I have no idea how animals mourn for the death in their family but I can feel the pain. It's just a kitten, that f*cked up driver must've thought so he did it on purpose. I don't know when, I don't know how but I know that somehow he will pay for what he did. Annoying as they may sometimes be, I love our house cats as if they are my children. Aww.. No use in trying to be bitter about this death. It's over and done all I can do now is say goodbye.

Paalam, Ponyang.

Back to my girls... My cousins and I went to the mall to grab some chow and take pictures. Fun day if it wasn't for the heavy traffic on the way to the mall and back. Later we went to watch a beauty contest held in line with the fiesta. And we kept joking about the prestige and kept making fun of the mistake the hosts make, and the contestants. Haha. Highest level laughtrip! After the show we went to my room to have a one-on-one talk with one of my cousin who's been having supernatural encounters. Oh, well...

The electricity is back but the cable still isn't. It's good that channel 7 is back but without an antenna, there's hardly a color. I missed the first few episodes of the new season of American Dragon jake Long but I hope the cable's back before October 8th so I can watch Read It and Weep.

The storm is over but what he's done while he was still here lingers...

Wala lang!